[Steve just gives him a grin that says nope, not a chance in hell can he deny wanting to try those things. He's jumped out of planes, but he's never flown - not like that.
And maybe they're both being a little careful, but it's not an easy subject to discuss, under any circumstances - and there's so much Bucky doesn't know, can't know until later, so much later, that it's hard for Steve to talk about things without feeling guilty.
Although, who's he kidding, he feels guilty all the time for keeping something so important from Bucky. But he just... he can't do that to him, tell him what happens, when neither of them can fix it. He's a little afraid that knowledge would change Bucky, and Steve misses him badly enough, wants to protect him badly enough, that he just can't do it. Even if it feels cowardly and selfish at the same time. He just hopes someday, Bucky will forgive him for it.
So he gives his best friend a lopsided grin - and a snort.] Hell, no. I mean, we had different things going on. The future's not rainbows and sunshine, either. In most ways, people are still people. It's... not bad, no. [Not always easy. But not always hard, either - in some senses.
Bucky's not there, though. That's never been easy.
Steve glances over at the question, though. He's not entirely sure what Bucky's asking about, specifically, but that means he can choose which suspicion he wants to answer.]
In the future? Yeah -
[He's not sure that's what Bucky means, but it's the easier option to talk about, just at the moment.] I'm okay. [He holds out his arms a little, for a second.] The serum still works, I'm still doing some good...
[Or so he'd thought. That's not really an avenue he wants to go down, either.] I'm okay. Not nearly enough free time to get into too much trouble, [he finishes, trying for his normal, easy, lopsided smile; even if he gets into plenty of trouble, for work.
Well. Got. SHIELD's a little... disbanded, at the moment. Although it sounds like maybe, maybe not for long.]
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And maybe they're both being a little careful, but it's not an easy subject to discuss, under any circumstances - and there's so much Bucky doesn't know, can't know until later, so much later, that it's hard for Steve to talk about things without feeling guilty.
Although, who's he kidding, he feels guilty all the time for keeping something so important from Bucky. But he just... he can't do that to him, tell him what happens, when neither of them can fix it. He's a little afraid that knowledge would change Bucky, and Steve misses him badly enough, wants to protect him badly enough, that he just can't do it. Even if it feels cowardly and selfish at the same time. He just hopes someday, Bucky will forgive him for it.
So he gives his best friend a lopsided grin - and a snort.] Hell, no. I mean, we had different things going on. The future's not rainbows and sunshine, either. In most ways, people are still people. It's... not bad, no. [Not always easy. But not always hard, either - in some senses.
Bucky's not there, though. That's never been easy.
Steve glances over at the question, though. He's not entirely sure what Bucky's asking about, specifically, but that means he can choose which suspicion he wants to answer.]
In the future? Yeah -
[He's not sure that's what Bucky means, but it's the easier option to talk about, just at the moment.] I'm okay. [He holds out his arms a little, for a second.] The serum still works, I'm still doing some good...
[Or so he'd thought. That's not really an avenue he wants to go down, either.] I'm okay. Not nearly enough free time to get into too much trouble, [he finishes, trying for his normal, easy, lopsided smile; even if he gets into plenty of trouble, for work.
Well. Got. SHIELD's a little... disbanded, at the moment. Although it sounds like maybe, maybe not for long.]